Old thoughts in a new way

I have been away for a while. While away though I have more clearly come to realize what makes me happy. I would never assume to say that I know now what makes me happy, but I am slightly clearer on the subject. Let me explain. My life, up to this point, has been dedicated to pursuing happiness. I usually come up short in one way or another. Most commonly I find that I get my hopes up in a person or a new "thing" (I will explain later) and when that person or thing fails me. As all persons and things eventually will do (with the exception of a dog, or maybe an Asian car) . Then after the failure I am a fat lump of self-depreciating pooh. That goes on for a while until I get sick of self loathing then I climb back on the great rock of religion. I don't want to sound sarcastic, religion is truly the one thing we as people can depend on to make us happy. Which leads me to my point. Jesus never said "let your happiness be determined by others" he said to "love others". These are two completely different things. As I have focused more on just being good to people. Not expecting rainbows out of everyone and everything's backside. I have become more of a whole person. Also I have realized that I'm a good person, and when people or things fail, it isn't a reflection on me. I can be more sure of myself and what I do with my life. Which leads me to another vein in this thought process of mine; What does it matter what you do in life as long as you find fulfillment? I have spent so much time looking for ways to make money and have "fun." Do you know what fun is and what happiness is? It's living a life of service and freedom. That is happiness. I will have more on this soon.